It's December ♥

OMG OMG OMG !!

Here comes December ! Time passes really fast ! I've abandoned my bloggie for a couple of time due to my laziness~ Wahahaha :D Yet I still got nothing to do during this freaking looooong holiday. Well my mom is still nagging about why there is ONLY two months of holiday, bla bla bla, seems like she doesn't like holidays much ! Perhaps she doesn't want to see me because i just tau how to eat and sleep LOL

And then ! What should I say hmm. O'BB s !! I miss you guys so damn much ! Sometimes I really feel implicated with my life but as I think of our sampat-ness , I will laugh-de-wor! Hahaha you know I am not crazy okay :P Guess I too miss you guyss ! Waiting for OUR OUTING !! And hey there is a little reminder, 2010 will be our last year ! Though I will be going to S2 next year, but I will still miss Giant and Mini geh !! :( *Hugs&Kisses♥

Lately, there are something bad happened again. I wonder why there are soo many problems for me to inherit ! Sometimes I really cant bear it. I thought that I could support it but I just couldn't control my tears.. I felt so grieve, I am so helpless.. Nobody understands me nobody understands me.. I always feel so and i don't know why. I wonder why is god willing to treat her like that. Why is life can be so tough for a person ? Why she have to be staunch why she have to do so many things ? And the most important one ! What should I do ? None. I can do nothing at all.

Dear, I know you always think for me, Think for us. But did you think for yourself? Sometimes you could just think for him. I hate when you act this way. But I know the reason. It has no way to let go of a person easily. I believe that I can understand you. I believe that I am the person that most understand you, in this world. But why do you deny it? At one time when you say you dont want me anymore, I felt so lifeless. I wanted to end my life this way. I couldn't live without you! If you had left me, there is not a person that would love me, real.

You apologized for what you've said. But I cant forget that moment. I still remember every single word that you speaked as if a scar in my heart. I am naive I am not mature. You said we just think for ourselves. But you would not know that I always think for you. I will never ever cry in front of you because I know that the feeling is worst, like what you've told me before. You always want me to stand alone, and that is why you want me to work, earn money. You know, I will try my best to overcome everything, not now but maybe in the future. I won't let us down! We are the strongest ever !!!

♥ My Love :

Do you know I have lotsa words to tell you ? There are 200+ days that we've been through, not very long and not very short though. As time passes we know each other more and more. Sorry for saying those words sorry for saying you don't understand me. I always feel that I am annoyed, although you said I am not. I felt so bad when I had bad temper and mood swing :( Sorry..

I wanna say hmm.. thank you for accompanying me all the way, thank you for not being mad when I am mad LOL , thank you for listening to my craps when I am down, thank you for being by here as always, thank you thank you for everything .. Urmm, I know that we will always be together, not to say forever, but I would like to spend my whole life time with you!

ILY♥ teehee



But... still cannot kao lui ! Hahaha ...